Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Back to School!

Here is daddy's biggest fan!
This Fall Ben will be going back to school. Ben is working at Adobe and in order to move up in the business ladder he must get his MBA. He took the GMAT a few months ago and got a 690. That is my smart husband for you! I am so proud! He applied to University of Utah for the Professional MBA
Program. He went for an interview and we just heard back that he got in. (which is a really good thing considering its the only place he applied) He will be going Tuesday and Thursday nights, it is a two year program and he will continue to work while he goes to school. Ben will work from 9-5 and then go straight to school and not get home around 11:00 PM. I tell people that I will be joining a single mom group on Tuesdays and Thursdays when I will not see my husband. I know, I shouldn't complain but I just love him and won't like those days. Needless to say we are so thrilled for this wonderful opportunity! Tanner and I are so lucky to have such a hard working father and husband in our lives. Ben works hard so that I can stay home and play with our cute little Utes fan all day! We are so blessed!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Team Tucker


My dad has recently taken up the hobby of running. I know I think he is crazy as well! A few weeks ago he ran the Antelope Island 50k which is about 32 miles! Can you believe I have lived in Utah almost my whole life and this was the first time I had been to Antelope Island. It was awesome there were huge buffalo just roaming around and the lake smelled like the ocean! I loved it! When my dad ran his marathon last year we all got shirts that said TEAM TUCKER on them. It is now tradition to wear the shirts whenever he runs a race. Neither Tanner nor Kate had shirts because Tucker's last run was before either of them where born. I decided to make "Team Tucker" onesies! I got the iron on letters and blue onesies at Hobby Lobby (man I love that place) They turned out perfect. Our whole family was able to make it out to support our dad. Way to go Dad! We love you!



The whole famdamnly

The ones I love the most!

Our little family!

Tanners Blessing


We talked to our pediatrician about when it would be okay to take Tanner to church. He said that because we had him in December that we should wait until at least March because it was RSV season. We decided we would bless him on March 4th. We did the blessing in church. (some people like to do it in their home) Ben did such a great job. The words that were said were so comforting and we are so happy to have Tanner in our lives. There were so many family members who came to support us! We are so blessed to have such great family near by. Here are some of the photos. 

I made these Tie cookies for the blessing they were cute but such a pain without a cookie cutter! Don't look too close!

SO much food!

My handsome boys!
I didnt think I would have him wear the hat but man I think he is stinking cute!

So cute!

He was a little sick of being passed around



Uncle Joshua and cousin Kate

Great grandma Mona and Papa

Klissa, Kiley, Shelby and Kate

Cousin Porter, Dax and Uncle Adam

Grandma Olson and the Blessing Boy

Uncle Bubba and the Blessing boy!

Getting used to a family of 3!



As most of you know having a baby changes everything! You now have to think of your little one before your self always. I think that is why they come so cute because you just want to take care of them as best as you know how.  I was looking back at these pictures (because I am like 4 months behind on blogging) and I cant believe Tanner fit in our bathroom sink! Man that was such easy bath time! He was so little, where did the time go! Here are some of the pictures we took in the first little while in having Tanner man home.
BATH TIME!
Look at that grumpy baby!
Sound asleep
Wide eyed and bushy tailed
Tanner and his cousin Kate (she is 6 months older than him)


My favorite Owl outfit! I gave this to Megan Black when she had Dax and now Tanner gets to wear it! One of the many benefits of having awesome boy cousins!

Cousin Porter holding Tanner! (he is being so soft I love this picture)

Miles loves baby Tanner!

Morning snuggles in moms bed!

One of my favorite pass times watching Greys Anatomy while holding a sleeping baby!

Why Hello!

Napping in the pack-n-play








Saturday, April 21, 2012

TANNER TIME!





So Ben was dressed in the sterilized scrubs and we were in the O.R. Everything was happening so fast. The have you swallow this super sick concoctions. It is so that if you throw up while you are strapped to the table it wont burn you lungs. Well it made me sick and I instantly started to throw up. Because of my migraines I like to think that I am pro at throwing up. I didn't get any on me or anywhere but in the small container they gave me. (Not really something to be proud of but whatever) So the Doctor asked how I was feeling and asked if I could feel her touching my stomach. I said I could and they gave me a little more of my epidural. To be honest I am not sure how much I could feel I was just wanting more epidural just to be on the safe side. I meant they are cutting me open while Im awake I needed it! Then she asked me again and started to cut. It was so weird to know that behind the shield my insides were showing. That the Doctor was getting my baby out. I was so excited to know that I would be able to see Tanner soon!

When they pulled Tanner out and I heard his cry. . . words can not describe the feeling I had although I will try. During my pregnancy I was so excited for my baby. I had always wanted to be a mother and now this dream of mine would become a reality! I thought I had a connection with Tanner before he was born, feeling him move inside of me. I would talk to him and sing to him in the car and just love him even though he was inside of me. I felt a love for him before I even knew him. When I heard him cry for the first time I loved him even more. I couldn't see him from where I was but I knew he was beautiful and that he was ours. That he was a blessing from god given to Ben and I. He was perfect in every way. I could not wait to see him or hold him in my arms. I looked at Ben and we were both in tears. He could see them cleaning Tanner and he said that he was so beautiful and man is that the truth!

They came and laid Tanner on my chest I cherish that moment. The moment where we were together the three of us! Moments like that is what life is all about! I remember Tanner had some blood coming out of his mouth and I just wiped it on my chest the mother instinct kicking in from the beginning.

Some people say it takes time to bond with a child. In my case, all I have to say it that it was meant to be. We are so happy. Tanner is such a great happy baby boy! With his perfect 10 little fingers and 10 little toes, his cute button nose, Bens eyes, my dimples, he is everything we could ever ask for and more.

Here are some of the pictures of Tanner in the hospital sorry some are from my phone so they are super blurry.  Enjoy!

My Grandpa with Tanner! 
Tanners Great Grandpa!

A happy mom!
Tanner in his cute Owl hat! He is spoiled Both Auntie Megan and Auntie Ade made him Owl hats!

My perfect yellow baby!

This is what heaven looks like
Aunt Megan

December 17th and 18th!


Saturday December 17th started out like any other. . . oh wait no no it did not. I had been having bracston hicks on and off for a while but that morning they felt different and they were happening more offten. I told Ben I thought I was in labor. We got ready and went to the hospital up to the labor and delivery level. A nurse hooked me up to the machine to monitor my contractions and my babys heart beat. The nurse said that we would wait 20 minutes to see how it looked and then she would come back and check on us.

Ben and I sat and watched the monitor. Everytime I cringed the line spiked! We were getting excited! The nurse came back and said that it indeed looked like I was in labor but that my contractions were still too far apart. She said go do your last minute Christmas shopping because she thought we would be back that night. Sure enough she was right!

Later that day we went to dinner with my parents at Shoots in the riverbottoms. We had Bens phone out and were timing my contractions. I was having them 6-8 minutes apart. It was more annoying than anything really because I just wanted them to be bad enough to have the baby. They had been like that all day and no matter what I did, they just stayed the same. After dinner we went home and I bounced on a excersize ball and was doing laps around our house! Ben was laughing but I needed the contractions to get bad enough that we could go have this baby! At about 2 a.m. Sunday morning we decided we would try and sleep. Yeah that was a joke! We laid down and every 5 minutes I sat up in pain. The contractions were now so painful I knew I was in labor and that we should get to the hospital.

We went to the hospital and the security guard said well by the looks of it your not here to visit. We laughed and said nope were here to have a baby! We got in the elevator and man we were excited! When we got to the labor and delivery floor they again hooked me up the the machines. The nurse said yep you are in labor let me go call the on call doctor and see what she would like us to do. She then came back and then it seemed like everything was happening super fast!

They took us to our room. The anesthesiologist came in and gave me my epidural. I got a catheter and an IV. Then we just played the waiting game. They gave me some patosine to speed things up!



The on call doctor was Dr. Clowerd. She came in around 10 am and checked me. She said that Tanners head was starting to swell already and that I would need to listen to her very carefully during the process of pushing in the hours to come. She said "when I say push you push when I say don't push you don't push". Talk about scarying the life out of me. She said she would be back in the afternoon to check on my progress.

We called our parents at this time to let them know that we were at the hospital and were going to be having this baby! (We waited because we figured no need to wake them up at 2 am when they can wait tell 10 ish) My mom was there for most of the day. . . she was so sweet! My dad came in and out most of the day as well. Got to love parents! 

In the next coming hours we played more of the waiting game. Then the nurse said I was dilated to a 10 and that it was time to start pushing. I worked with the nurse and Ben helped hold my legs and I pushed. I pushed like I had never pushed before. I pushed for 3 hours and man I was exhausted. There was a moment when the nurse put oxygen on me and had me roll from side to side because the Tanners heart beat was struggling. At one point they had to put a monitor inside me to monitor Tanner better. It was at that time when the nurse called out the door for some help and to get someone from NICU. I was starting to panic because it seemed like everything was suddenly wrong.

The doctor came in and said that there was a small piece of my cirvix acting like a flap on Tanners head. When I pushed it would move and we were good but when I relaxed it would flop back. Because of that reason she didn't feel comfortable using forceps. She said that Tanners head had swollen more, and that it was getting pretty serious we needed to get the baby out. The doctor and nurses were going to go prep the O.R. and Ben needed to hurry and get in the starilized clothes cause this was happening fast.

The feelings I had were mixed. I was scared. I had my dad and Ben give me a quick blessing. Ben said a few words and we were all crying.

Then we were rushed to the O.R.. We had a video camera but they had us turn it off during the c-section. As soon as Tanner takes another good nap I will be telling all about the C-section!

 It is funny looking back on these pictures because I remember feeling huge but man it looks like I could be on Shallow Hal in a fat suit!




Thursday, April 19, 2012

Pregnancy!





The first few months of pregnancy were tough for me. I don't know why they call it morning sickness when it is all the time! I was back and forth from my desk to the bathroom all day long. I was so grateful when my doctor prescribed me Zofran. It is a medication that helps with nausea. It saved my life! 9 months is along time. Especially when it is really like 10 months!

One of my favorite things about being pregnant was when I could feel my baby move. Ben and I would lay in bed at night and fill my belly. For some reason when it was time to go to bed Tanner thought it was time to do cartwheels! We loved that!

My due date was December 18th. Which is crazy cause that is my birthday (we didn't plan on getting pregnant so soon) When the time got closer my doctor thought for sure I would not make it to my due date. I was huge and my baby was a good size too. At one of my last appointments Dr. Jones said he would induce me on December 14th because he was going out of town and I was dilated to a 3 everything looked good. I was ecstatic who gets to have their baby early! On December 13th the hospital called and said that they had allot of women having babys on the 14th but that I was number 10 and they would call on the 14th with what time I should come in. We were so excited! The afternoon came and the hospital called and said that alot of women had come in on their own and that with me being number 10, I would not be having my baby today unless I went into labor on my own. I was so sad. Who tells you you can have your baby and then you don't get to have him.  So my doctor went out of town and I just had to wait.

Changes!




We had been married 2.5 years and wondered when it was right to start family. We talked it over and decided that when Ben graduated and got a real job that we would start trying. Ben Graduated from BYU and got a job at Adobe. We were thrilled! We decided I would go and get my IUD out. I got my IUD out on a Thursday and according to the ultra sound I got pregnant that Saturday. . . only 2 days man we were lucky! Only a few weeks after getting my IUD out I decided I would take a pregnancy test. I knew that I was probably not pregnant but thought it would be fun! It was a Saturday morning and I woke up before Ben which was unusual. I went in the bathroom and peed on a stick. Low and behold two lines!!! I couldn't believe it! I went in the next room, woke Ben up by asking what it looked like to him! He said it looks like WE ARE PREGNANT grabbed me and threw me back in bed and we giggled and talked and could not stop smiling!